Why I started blogging.
3 months ago I wasn’t the woman I am today, I wasn’t called Betty, I was known by another name.
I am a bit of a miracle really.
In fact I am a big miracle.
In the beginning ..
I was born arse first, and dead.
So I wasn’t really off to a very good start was I ?
I was born in 1969 to two narcissistic parents, and that is where my last journey began.
Throughout my life I have suffered child abuse, trauma, severe enough to cause me to develop Multi personality disorder. I was born with Autism and a predisposition to want to die. I did once have a sibling, who like me was born with these traits and had the same parents. Unfortunately he didn’t last as long on this earth as I have, as he took his own life 20 years ago.
3 months ago after a severe mental health crisis, I was one click away from ending my own life. My time was up, there was nowhere left to hide.
A miracle happened, in the form of cannabis, and suddenly I was free.
Free from the burden of running and hiding.
Cannabis allowed my mind to calm, having Autism is for me, like having 24 tabs open in my mind at any one time. It is exhausting.
For 50 years I have never been able to relax.
I had been wound up so tight, trying to keep my thoughts and feelings to myself, for too many years.
Add to the fact I am a woman, and a single parent to an Autistic teenager with Tourettes, it was time for a breakdown.
A mind can only take so much, a body can only fight so much, it eventually breaks.
luckily for me I decided there and then that I couldn’t die, my children needed me, my grandchildren needed me.
So I decided to fight. I started writing my thoughts down, everything and anything, I wrote my whole life story in 2 weeks. 80,000 words long.
I couldn’t remember the last time I had ever written anything. Probably at school as a teenager.
I discovered I had multiple personality disorder by chance, when I started noticing my actions, and through my words I discovered who I really was, because I now knew that my mind was capable of creating different personalities, I decided to recreate myself into a new personality, and this is Betty, who you all know by now.
Betty is who I was always meant to be, and this is why I started blogging.
I wanted the world to hear my story, because it may just save a life.
My dream is to help as many people along the path to my own dream, which is to heal, and to share love and harmony within our species.
I am a born healer, and I am here to do my job.
I have strong connections with the red Indian tribe.
I am not blogging to earn money, but to share my gift with the world.
A gift that I believe should not be sold.
Along the way I will freely share a unique insight into my abilities and disabilities.
The reason I started blogging was to tell the world that miracles really do happen, and I am living proof of that.
Self belief is the miracle. cannabis is a miracle my good mental health is a miracle, you have to find yourself, believe in yourself and watch the miracles appear.
Dare to believe, love Betty x