Most of us have gotten angry at some point in our lives.
Anger is an normal emotion.
Many people believe that anger is a negative emotion, and try to avoid feeling this way. Most people don’t particularly like feeling angry. It’s uncomfortable, they would rather feel happy instead.
But what if you couldn’t feel happy ? What if happiness seemed unattainable ? What if you felt that death was the only way out ?
Anger is the emotion that the fight or flight response can produce, when a real threat to life has been recognised.
Anger then becomes a positive response , activating different neurons in an effort to preserve life.
Anger has helped me to survive. It has kept me alive in a world that has tried its very best to kill me.
Am I angry ? Damn right I am.
I have every reason to be.
Fighting back.. not dead yet !!
Angry Betty has spoken.
Is your anger keeping you alive ? Or are you keeping it alive ?
Does it have a positive effect for you ? I’d love to hear your thoughts.
P.S feeling angry doesn’t make you an angry person.
Breaking news Blogging Betty is missing in action.
Betty’s Bunch have confirmed that Blogging Betty disappeared around 3 days ago and they haven’t seen her since.
Betty’s Bunch are the alters with whom she shares a body. They are said to be left devastated by the disappearance of Blogging Betty.
One of the Bunch, who didn’t wish to be identified, has released a statement saying ‘please come home Betty, were not angry with you, there are 4 unpublished blogs waiting for your return. Since you have been gone, we’ve all been sad. We miss you, life isn’t the same without you.’
A spokesperson for the family said ‘Blogging Betty is around 5ft with long blonde hair, with blue eyes.
Will look very similar to the photograph shown, but with a bigger backside a few more wrinkles, and a lot more clothes.
If spotted please contact Betty at the jointatthetopofthegarden.
This may be a longer post than normal as I tend to become very passionate about certain issues that affect me. You might need to get yourself a coffee if you want to read it to the end.
Cannabis can cause mental health disorders.
Is this a proven fact ? Would these people have developed mental health disorders if they hadn’t used cannabis ? If somebody can actually prove that these mental health disorders would never have developed if the person hadn’t used cannabis, then that would make it a fact.
Fiction is when a mere opinion that cannabis can cause mental health disorders is voiced.
Everybody is entitled to an opinion so I always listen to the opinions of others on this subject.
I have Autism, I like to deal in cold hard facts, when dealing with something as important as the effects of cannabis on my mental health.
Seeing as I have some of the most severe mental health disorders there are, including complex PTSD, Personality Disorder, severe depression with suicidal ideation, and acute Anxiety, I do like to keep myself up to date on topics concerning mental health.
Since embarking on my journey using Cannabis as a medication to treat my mental health problems, my ears tend to prick up when I hear both topics mentioned in the same sentence.
Everywhere I go I seem to be hearing that cannabis is dangerous for your mental health.
I watched a YouTube video yesterday where even Dr Phil was riding along on the curse cannabis train.
On his video was a young boy who had anger issues, he was smashing up the house, threatening his mom with a knife, and apparrantly all because he was using cannabis. I switched off at this point when I saw that more BS was to follow.
When I was a young girl I was exactly the same. I was angry all of the time, I was in trouble with the police, I was violent, playing truant from school, running away from home, and threatening my mom, and guess what ? I had never even heard of cannabis.
I grew up in the 70’s, in a tiny village in Newcastle in the UK.
I suffered a lifetime of abuse and trauma without Cannabis, I developed so many mental health disorders over the last 50 years, and guess what ? All without the use of cannabis.
I had lived a very unhappy life until I actually found Cannabis.
After a mental health crisis that almost ended my life, cannabis and myself found each other, and I discovered a Miracle.
Cannabis has been my ‘Miracle cure’ for my poor mental health.
Since starting to use cannabis daily as part of my medication regime, I also take my prescribed antidepressants, I have found myself.
I have found happiness in my life for the first time ever. After 40 years of trying every medication, therapy, and advice known to man. I have finally found something that helps.
Cannabis isn’t going to kill me, although the tobacco might, I’m a non -smoker apart from my one cannabis joint, 2 or 3 times per day.
I like to live as healthily as possible, I rarely take medication apart from my antidepressants. I do not drink alcohol, alcohol is a depressant and when mixed with a depressive personality, it brings out the worst in us.
I have never touched an illicit drug in my life, and I have always been careful about what chemicals I put into my body.
I have requested medicinal cannabis from my GP and psychiatrist, and it is always denied.
There is no scientific proof that cannabis helps those with mental health problems, is the general reply.
I am walking living proof that it does, so why am I, and every other walking, talking, living proof miracles being ignored ?
why are we being refused a medication that is now perfectly legal to prescribe ?
And Therein lies the answer to the question.
For a few months now I have been wondering why more and more people have started to say that cannabis is dangerous for our mental health. Why won’t GP’s legally prescribe a drug that they can actually see helping their patient ?
Mental health is big business now in the UK. The amount of people with mental health issues is on the rise, child mental health has seen a nearly 50 % increase in the last few years.
My teenage son has severe mental health issues and has never been anywhere near a cannabis plant.
More and more children are being medicated for adhd, anxiety, depression, and numerous other medications are given out daily without a thought. Some of these have very serious side effects, and we are giving them to our children. The pharmaceutical business is Booming.
Cannabis has been around forever, it is a natural plant. It grows in the soil. it is not made in a laboratory, it is totally natural. It has been used for thousands of years.
I remember years ago when the drug style of choice was glue sniffing. Although I never tried it, I was often around people that did.
People died from glue sniffing, or aerosol sniffing, and not one of those products were ever made illegal, why ?
Eventually Age restrictions were put in place, so that you needed to wait until you were 16 before you could sniff glue or aerosols.
I have always been against drugs of any kind, until I ignored advice from professionals, and tried cannabis.
All drugs have risks, I have weighed up the pros and cons of my smoking cannabis, against every other medication available for my needs.
My conclusion has been that this is the least harmful drug around.
It can cause weight gain, as cannabis increases the appetite, but for me this actually helps with my eating disorders. My responses and reaction times are much slower when using cannabis, and I have given up driving because of this.
Slowing down my body is good for me, as I can be manic when not using cannabis.
My brain is slowed down enough that I can keep up with my own thoughts and feelings.
Living in a constant state of Anxiety is more dangerous than using cannabis, being suicidal is more dangerous than smoking Cannabis.
When anybody asks me what proof I have that cannabis works in a positive way on mental health, I reply, that since taking cannabis I have found true happiness, I have been able to love myself, It has reduce my anxiety levels to zero, it has enabled me to take control of my own mental health, so that I in turn, can help others around me. And last, but by no means least, I no longer want to die. I want to live again.
I very much doubt that my mental health could get any darker than it was before I met cannabis.
Cannabis has shown me the light, at the end of a very long dark tunnel.
Fact 1 ..cannabis causes mental health problems …BULLSHIT !
Fact 2 ..cannabis is dangerous ..BULLSHIT !!
Fact 3 cannabis is a gateway drug .. BULLSHIT !!!
All opinions are my own.
Please speak to your own GP before trying cannabis, there may be contraindications with other prescribed drugs you may be taking.
Like any new drug, take note of any side effects as they occur. Cannabis can sometimes cause paranoia, if this occurs stop using and try a different strain.
Do your own research into whether this could be a suitable drug for you.
After suffering from depression most of my life, I am very grateful that I have the opportunity to live another day in a human form.
We are not human beings, we are spiritual beings living a human life.
My human journey began with trauma, I was dead at birth, my human journey has been a very traumatic one. Born with Autism, but not diagnosed until the age of 48.
I suffered child abuse from a very young age, and was raised by 2 narcissistic parents.
I developed a personality disorder, called dissociative identity disorder or multiple personality disorder, as a necessity for my human survival.
I have been totally unaware that I had this disorder until the ripe old age of 50.
Being psychic too, has put a strain on my physical and mental health.
After what I class as a near death experience, when I almost took my own life, I stumbled upon my spiritual path.
Spiritual awakening is not about ghosts and ghoulies, although I do see ‘spirits’ I prefer the term energies, and that is a different story altogether.
My spiritual awakening has been the opportunity to see myself for the very first time.
Realising that you are the source of your own happiness, I have found myself at last.
Today is Halloween, I’ve always been afraid of ghosts and spirits, even though I feel them, see them and hear them, they have terrified me all of my life.
when my brother died 20 years ago at the age of 27, I was convinced he would come back to me at some point, and slept with my head under the blankets for 6 years.
I thought that I was going mad for a very long time. I then convinced myself that everybody hears voices, and I rarely mentioned it to anyone.
having mental health problems and hearing voices, tends to cast a different outlook on my psychic abilities. I am not schizophrenic, that must be a really scary disorder to have. I do not have hallucinations, my eyes are never open when I ‘see’ things, and my predictions are always right.
Although I am mad in the technical sense, the reason that I was so scared of my ability was that I had no control over which energies I engaged with, leaving me wide open to good and bad energies alike.
I decided to work on protecting myself, and to work with my spiritual guides each and every day.
Because I am a natural empath I absorb other people’s energies.
When you are not aware of this, you can become seriously depleted in energy yourself.
You become laden down with other people’s negative energies, your own energy field can become blocked, and can carry this blockage around for years without ever knowing.
We have to protect our own energy fields.
My daily routine now consists of protecting my energy and raising my vibrations.
A cold shower in a morning invigorates all of the energy in my body.
I use colour cards to chose what colour I need to focus on that day, then choose my wardrobe accordingly.
I get out for some fresh air, a brisk walk for 20 minutes, then on with general tasks of the day.
Around lunch time I meditate.
I use Oracle cards to direct me on my path.
there are lots of cards to choose from but these are my favourite.
I meditate with these cards placed over my heart, and ask them to provide me with insight on my journey.
Today I decided to share my reading with everyone as my spooky contribution to Halloween.
The top card represents my past. Straight away I recognised myself as being the ‘yes’ woman, the ‘go to’ woman, I could never say the word no, except to myself.
I was a people pleaser, allowing my energy to be used, time and time again.
The second card is the present, Take a Break.
This is exactly what I am doing at this moment in time, I have taken a break from the outside world, in order to connect with my own spirituality.
The final card is the future,
Dance with life, the title says it all really, I am taking life by hand and leading it onto the dance floor, my spiritual journey is the first dance.
I am looking for my soul tribe to get this dance party started.
If you feel a connection with me, please contact me, I know you are all out there somewhere, I just need to find you.
Today hasn’t been a good day for me on the personality front.
I have Dissociative Identity Disorder.
I don’t call it that, being of a different generation and mindset, I prefer to call it by the old term ‘multiple personality disorder.’
There is debate over whether this disorder is distinct separate personalities or merely less than one whole personality.
I don’t feel less of a whole person, more that I am multiple people.
Less than 2% of the American population have multiple personality disorder, and women are diagnosed 6 times more than men.
So how come movies always portray men as the crazy person with multiple personality disorder ?, serial killers, who’s alters secretly kidnap people and murder them ?
Why is it never the 50 year old British Geordie Bird, who thinks fuck it let’s go rip some heads off ?
I don’t think I have a personality that is capable of murder, but never say never, my ex husband hasn’t been seen for 8 years so you never know.
Today has not been a good day. Although I can be stable at times, if certain ‘triggers’ occur out of the blue, I can become angry Betty, she is 13 and was let down by everybody in her childhood. She is still very angry about that.
Last night we were ‘triggered’ during a text conversation with a friend.
He wasn’t to know it was a trigger for us, but 13 year old Betty got on her high horse and chased him off.
Waking this morning we still weren’t quite sure which Betty we were, when the teen son suddenly informed us that he wasn’t going to school. He has started refusing school again, and we are thinking about taking him out of the education system altogether, because of his Autism and anxiety.
So in a split second we quickly changed to Mammy Betty.
Mammy Betty gets on with the job, says it like it is, only teenage Betty keeps jumping in and out too. We began switching rapidly through all alters, looking for a solution.
Unfortunately suicidal Betty claimed the throne for a good few hours, whilst stoner Betty and Heidi continually dragged her up to the joint at the top of the garden until she disappeared.
This is quite a disappointed because we thought that suicidal Betty had gone for good. This seems not to be the case.
We shall have to keep our eye on the ball. This Betty is too clever and sly for us to ignore.
This is me, writer Betty signing out for now.
Tune in next time for ‘what happened to Wednesday ?’
I have suffered from depression for most of my life.
Once the winter months start approaching, and the days become shorter, darker and colder, my depression can get much worse. Even those of us who don’t suffer from depression all year round, can still get a form of depression called Seasonal Affective Disorder, or SAD.
SAD affects most people during the winter months, mainly from November to March.
It has been linked to a lack of sunlight, and the reduction of serotonin levels in the brain.
Once spring arrives, the weather is warmer, days are longer and lighter and brighter, the person’s serotonin levels rise once more, and they are back to their pre-sad selves.
I have been using light Therapy for 3 months now in an effort to cure my depression.
I live in a small part of England in a city called Newcastle. I live on the edge of Scotland. we have our own weather front in my village. We are situated at the top of a huge hill with valleys below.
When it snows in our part of the world, everything stops. It is a place where we can get cut off from the surrounding villages quite easily.
It can be cold and windy in the summer months, and we even had snow in August this year.
I started using light therapy because I knew I was lacking the sunlight that I needed.
I’m pretty sure I was meant to live in a sunny country, but something went wrong and I ended up in Newcastle.
I purchased a UV sun lamp for the days when there is no sun, and I meditate daily in sunlight.
Today it is cold, it is blowing what we call a Hoolie in Geordie Land, for the uninitiated this is similar to a hurricane, only the English version.
But both look like this.
It is very cold with a windchill of -100 if you get my drift.
But there’s blue sky and the sun is shining, you don’t want to miss this kind of opportunity when it presents itself.
If it wasn’t so windy today I would have seen this. I live near a flying school, and sunny weekends always look like this..this is a picture I took last week.
Having used both natural sun and a Therapy lamp, I can safely say that the suns rays cannot be beaten on effectiveness in treating my depression. My serotonin levels must be sky high, I am happy for the first time in forever.
Even if it is cold, I still toddle up to the joint at the top of the garden, with my winter woolies, hot water bottle in hand, and gratitude for a beautiful sunny day in Autumn.
The neighbours are probably wondering why I am presently lying on my sun lounger, in the freezing cold wind, with my hat, coat and boots on, sun bathing in winter.
I think that they are used to me by now.
I know it doesn’t look like a normal thing to be doing, but I am anything but normal, but if they could only feel what I could feel, they would all be out doing it themselves.
A neighbour Lynda has confided that she too suffers from SAD, so watch this space for my new winter sun bathing neighbour.
Give it a go, if you have depression what do you have to lose ?
People underestimate the importance that sunlight plays in our daily lives, on our mental and psychical health. Just like In nature, we need sunlight to survive.
Invest in a UV lamp if you don’t get much sun in the winter months. They won’t break the bank at around £30 – £40 on Amazon, and it could be just what you need.
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