Don’t Hold Back Your Blogging and Mental Wellness

Having suffered with severe mental health problems for 40 years, you could definitely say I’m an expert. 

I’m an expert in my own mental health issues, which include severe depression with suicidal ideation, severe Anxiety, and one of the most severe personality disorders, Dissociative Identity Disorder.

To add to this I also have Autism. 

All people have differences, and some people are more different than just different.

I am a lot more different than your average 50 year old Grandmother.

Because I have been trying to keep those differences hidden from myself and the world, I ended up almost taking my own life. 

Instead I began writing.

I have never kept a diary, Journal, or any kind of reminder of my daily life, and as I stared writing, I began to see the benefits that journaling had on my mental wellbeing.

I began at the beginning, it is usually the best place to start.

From my birth, through my childhood and into adulthood, I somehow ended up with 80,000 words. 

Once my thoughts, feelings and memories came out, I felt a transformation. 

Because these things were no longer trapped or hidden, and were there for all to see, I felt free.

As well as meditating, I continued on my journey by joining the Blogging community. 

Blogging has become my therapy, my readers are my therapists. my thoughts and feelings are shared by those who read my blogs, as the saying goes ‘a problem shared is a problem halved.’

 So what would sharing with the world do ?

Sharing with the world does something good, for myself, and for others like me.

Using a blog as therapy is the way forward. 

Embrace your differences, talk about them, share them with the world. 

You never know, your story could one day be somebody else’s survival guide. 

Be your own inspiration, if you have knowledge of something share it. 

Waiting for somebody else to ‘Fix’ your problems is a waste of valuable time. Be proactive not reactive. Love yourself as much as you love others.

Be kind and share always love Betty x 

The Newbie Guide to Blogging With WordPress And Autism

4 months ago I had never heard of a blog.

Not only that, I had no computer skills whatsoever.

I decided to do some research and my goal was to have my own website and my very own blog.

I have a passion for writing, I found it late in life at the age of 50, but better late than never is my motto.

I had written over 80,000 words, and they just kept coming. 

I needed an outlet for these words and this is how I found the blogging world.

In general, I have found the blogging community to be great. 

Full of helpful friendly people who readily give you advice, from things that they themselves have learned along the way. 

Because of the help and advice given by other bloggers, and my own research, I now have my blog up and running, and I am the proud owner of my very own piece of cyberspace. 

Karensjointatthetopofthegarden.com 

My first step was to purchase a computer. 

Doing research I came across WordPress.com 

It looked professional, and it had great reviews from other bloggers. 

This is where my blogging journey began. 

WordPress has been a life saver for me, as somebody with very few computer skills, and a completely different way of learning.

I have Autism and needed a lot of support from the tech guys at WordPress, their customer service was second to none.

WordPress will guide you every step of the way. I didn’t even know what a cache was until a helpful agent from WordPress told me. They are extremely patient, and take time to listen to your technical issues.

If like me you would love to blog but feel you don’t have the technical skills, this is the perfect site to do it. 

Blogging can earn you money from the comfort of your own home, doing something that you love. That was incentive enough for me to want to learn about this blogging thing. I haven’t started on the monetary side of things yet, as I am still basking in the glory of my achievements on the blogging scene for now, the rest will come later. 

If I can do it, then anybody can… I learn something new every day, and love to share my stories. Stories are meant to be shared love Betty x

What The World Would be like if The Darkest Nights Of The Soul Didn’t Exist

3 months ago I experienced what I can now call ‘the darkest nights of my soul.’

Having suffered Severe Depression for most of my life, and having several close calls with suicidal ideation, the inevitable happened. I finally came as close as I could do to death, without actually physically dying. 

My soul was dead, in its place was only darkness. The blackest black you could ever imagine. There was just complete nothingness.. no feelings, no thoughts, no light. No reason left to live. 

I cried out for help, luckily the Samaritans answered my cry. 

They kept me going for a few days, until the strangest thing happened. 

I’ve always known spirituality, and embraced it. even that had provided little comforting the darkness, until suddenly I was shown the ‘light’ at the end of the tunnel. 

My Brother, who committed suicide 20 years ago, showed me the way, and as my eyes began to fully open, I found my reason for being here, my reason for living, and my true path. 

I believe that this is my final spiritual journey. I believe that people who suffer from depression, are actually light workers, who are unaware of their purpose in life. 

They don’t fit in, they feel as though their lives have no meaning. This is because they have lived so long  in the grips of their depression, they do not know any other way to live. 

These people are usually the kindest, most selfless people that you can meet. 

You very rarely find selfish people suffering from depression, this is because they only look after number 1, therefore their path will be an easy one. 

I have found that many people who suffer with depression, will usually have spent most of their lives putting others first. 

So what would the world be like if the darkest night of the soul didn’t exist ?

It would be full of people who would never be able to truly see the light. Full of selfish people, who will never be able to put others first.

I believe that everything happens for a reason. 

I found my way out of the darkness of depression, and into a brand new light, full of happiness, joy, and self love. It can be done, but only you can find the way. 

My Healing thoughts go out to each and every one of you, who may have experienced ‘the darkest nights of the soul,’ it is the most painful experience imaginable, you wouldn’t wish it on your worst enemy. 

But take a step back, and realise how strong you really are for even being alive, life is hard for us all, but for people who suffer from depression, it can be just too hard for one soul to cope with, on top of everyday demands.

I feel like the luckiest person alive, because I went through it, and have come out the other side, as a completely new person. 

I may still have other severe mental health problems that will never go away, but the worst one of all is depression, I won’t be sorry that it has gone. 

Look after yourself, if anybody reading this is going through severe depression right now, please feel free to message me, I always try to reply to as many people as I can. 

One day my words may save a life..

Love Betty x 

How not Knowing The Importance of Boundaries Makes You a Rookie.

Today I decided to once and for all, set my personal boundaries.

The neighbours probably thought I was nuts. Standing outside drawing a circle in the soil with a stick.

And then, standing there talking to myself. 

They are probably used to it by now, I do strange things like that frequently.

Recently I have been using colour cards on my spiritual path, and today’s card was the colour Brown. 

I always try to wear something of the colour chosen each day, and then take the advice that the cards give. 

The colour brown indicates the Earth.

Dirt.

And the card explained that I needed to work on my boundaries. 

For 50 years I have had very few boundaries which has in turn, led to me having extremely poor mental health. 

Leaving yourself wide open with no clear personal boundaries is a recipe for disaster.

It has taken me many years to understand the importance of clear boundaries. 

If you do not respect yourself enough, people will take advantage of those unclear boundaries, and you will find yourself running around like a headless chicken, trying to please everybody but yourself. 

It’s easier than I thought it would be. 

Once you get over the fact that you aren’t being selfish, things start to fall into place. 

You are not being selfish by needing to do what makes you happy, it is your birth right. Practice saying no, do it in front of a mirror if you have to. If like me you are a people pleaser, you will find this difficult to do at first, because it goes against that groove that you have been carving for yourself over the years. 

Carve yourself a new groove 

A self love groove, surrounded by boundaries.

Today as I stood inside the muck circle that I had drawn around myself, I set down my new boundaries, I will only allow myself to be treated with the same love, respect, and kindness, that I show to others.

I will treat myself with the same love, respect and kindness that I show to others.

I will say No if my boundaries are not adhered to.

Check your Boundaries today.

let people know your Boundaries, then it is up to them if they want to listen or not.

You can not be responsible for what other people do, only for what you do for yourself.

Carving clear strong and firm Boundaries into your life is a recipe for success.

love Betty x

Why Cannabis and Spirituality Will Change Your life.

A few months ago my life almost ended. I was suicidal, and close to the edge.

I started using cannabis to control my mental health issues, and 

suddenly I found myself on a completely different journey.

My own Spiritual Path. 

Gone were my demons, and in their place were spiritual helpers.

I have always been spiritual, but had become so bogged down in my depression and anxiety that I could not find my way home.

Cannabis has allowed me to relax, to release my demons. It has allowed me to calm my mind. It has allowed me to be able to meditate for the first time since I was a small child, when I used to do it without even knowing that this is what I was doing, or the reasons behind it.

Meditation has allowed me to find myself again, and to be at peace for the first time in my life.

Cannabis and spirituality combined have been my ticket to happiness. 

I am so pleased that I finally got the golden ticket.

Im like a kid in a sweet shop, and I have never been happier.. love Betty x